SYMPOSIUMS OF ENGAGEMENTS & COURSE TO MARRIAGE have
     increased tenfold in the couple of months prior to impromptu invitation to accompany
     his BOYFRIEND in Parisian flat, yet not every conversation delving into prospects
     of an ( eventual ) oncoming proposal spurned jubilant BUTTERFLIES to flutter, to
     quiver within padding of his tummy.

  Rather than euphoric bliss surmounting jitters of a fidgety lover, AVOWALS of
  extending their affair annexed to skittish mentality ; enforcing concept that, in spite
  of chronic instances of expressed devotion without enunciated of ‘ I love you ‘ ( early
  mornings of which rays of light DID NOT pry alertness from behind slumbering eyes
  but instead genial taps, mimicking that of a savant composing melodies at his
  instrument, against physique branded with FLAWS - random, though serendipitous,
  HUGS from behind whilst he labored in their kitchen - the ‘ How was your day? ‘ &
  ‘ How about we see each other for lunch today? ‘s ), he is UNDESERVING of such
  exquisite affirmation of furthering relationship.

               Chiefly when accounting for standards indicated by Sebastian HIMSELF
               ( okay, maybe not direct from the tiger’s mouth, but insinuated nonetheless ).

                      As a good fiancé would not he need provide for his significant other in
                      fashions moreover to that of a mere BOYFRIEND? Does
                      NOT reconciliation of dedicated attachment entail protecting one another
                      ‘till death do them part, a VOW one half CANNOT perfectly concede to?
                      Has NOT past saturated in lament & enduring sorrow over sheared
                      familial ties ( by his own accord, too ) been admonished so frequently
                      that anticipation of building, let alone maintaining, HOUSEHOLD of their
                      own dwindle with each exchange?

        Now none of that is to say that yearnings to provide & develop lifetime
        together have NOT vexed his disposition, but CHESTER LEWIS is NO
        excuse for a gullible, innocuous entity. Well aware is he of how gravely
        he is a vulnerability, a PERILOUS menace he is to those whom constrain
        benevolent affections towards he.

     && he WON’T jeopardize anyone’s existence for his own personal gain & exhilaration.

‘ Who is to foretell matters of the POSSIBLE future? I may be a MAN
                    of scholarly wit, but ill adept am I to predicting the future? I know as
                    much as you. Well - we’ll just have to wait & see. ‘

           ( But fuck it. He is man & MAN will be invariably greedy & egocentric
           for that of which he desires is ingrained to conscience so deeply that
           barrier between want & NEED bedims. )